"you may not be her first, her last, or her only. she loved before she may love again. but if she loves you now, what else matters? she's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. she may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. so don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - Bob Marleyhello people sorry for mia-ing for super long! anw so much has happened, its hard to pin down everything. i've been studying, and im enjoying it actually. hmm so much to say, where shall i start? okaye i just say in short la okaye heh.
i broke up with winfred exactly 2weeks ago. this time i think i handled it really well, no much crying, didnt break down for weeks, didnt felt like it was the end of the world at all. not because he was a bad guy, but because i think i'll matured (ger dont cry im being very serious here) a little and i tend to see things differently now. we decided to be friends because we've drifted for quite some time cos both very busy with school and stuff. he just entered nus, got climbing 3 times a week, i have to study for prelims and As, we hardly have enough time for each other. so we drifted and as time went by, we lost what we once shared. unlike how we started, he was a full time climber, no other committments, i was still able to slack off and we really were happy. so no point dragging it and drifting even more if all we could do was send a message asking how's everything and probably try to squeeze out the time that we cannot spare, just to have a meal. it wouldnt be genuine. so we decided to be friends. 4months 1week. haha. it was really hard, at first we couldnt agree, but we talked for 2.5 hours at vivo, woah then reacehd a happy conclusion. i was happy while i was with him, so thats enough. i think as long as what we had was real, we truly enjoyed each other's company and we really shared something that no one can ever take it away from us and no one can ever deny, i think its enough. i got over it within 2 or 3 days. haha
i was telling my friend, "hey i had the worst guy (the first one) and the best guy (winfred), but i still screw up my own realtionship, hahaha." its true ah, i really think he's great, probably my ideal boyfriend, but lets just say the timing screwed us up huh. haha.
i think i'll take a pretty long break, just wanna stay away from all these in the near future, really quite turned off, not by winfred, but by how emotionally tiring it was. haha.
okaye studying! i studied really little for prelims, like eg for history, out of 12topics, i only studied 6. 5 questions out of these 12 will come out, and guess what? all the 5 that came out, i've got them all right! heh my spotting not bad ah xD those who studied a hell lot but sway never get the topic right, thats it man! heh econs and the rest i lazy say, but i'll study hard(:
heh ruimin dont sad me love you! i'll talk to you again!
the rest, see you girls on jw's birthday! bye(: