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Friday, May 22, 2009
如果...
Hello!
Where should i begin?... haha.... Loads of things happened over tis past week or so, that made me super emo and pissed and many other things....
CAUTION!... LONG POST AHEAD!... you shld know lah, i very long winded de... waha... read finish if u consider urself my good fren!:)... haha... i like forcing u all to read sia... waha... read hor!... i sacrificing my slp to blog de lehz.... haha...
Take yesterday as a start, i was super pissed and disappointed with myself that i actually broke down.... I went to teach the yr 1 for peer tutoring, and i was super confident at the start, cos i topped the level for MIEC, so i didnt prepare at all!... then when i began teaching, i kept saying the wrong stuffs and i think i made them more confused at the end... so i was super super guilty and i felt really really bad... i was suppose to help them clear their doubts but i think i made them much more confused.... sigh.... then my poly classmate, li rong, sat in my class to pei me from 5 to 7pm.... i felt super touched and i really thank her a lot cos i had moral support, if not i think i would have screwed up much more and much worse... Thank, li rong (i know u read the blog)... haha.... but i felt very guilty cos after that she had to rush home for dinner... sigh... then i was so freaking emo cos i felt really really really bad and guilty.... and then, my 4 bowling frens call me say that they waiting for me and it was alrdy 7.30 le... i had training after ta u see... hehe.... but i told them no need wait for me le but they still did anyway... thanks ppl, i really appreciate it!... then there was my junior, his fren was in the class that i taught so he help me ask for her feedback... then his fren reply "the tutor nt very good, she kept contradicting herself"... sigh... so i became even more sian... cos i nv expect that tis kind of thing will happen.... then at 8, my frens had to cab down to the place as there was no comm members to arrange lanes and stuff, so i sabo them take cab down... so i kept blaming myself yesterday for everything that happened cos i like lian lei everyone... i sabo-ed everybody yesterday!... so how can i feel good?.... then i cried lor...
i really hated everything that happen ard me nowadays!... i dunno why things have become like tat!... i dun listen in lectures and i fall asleep in half my lectures!... till now, i still dunno wat my lecturer talking abt lor when my ct is ard the corner... i am so screwed up for tis sem... i hate it!... why must it be happening to me now!... ah!.... i feel as if i am losing everything and that i am doing things for the sake of doing!... sigh... but dun worry abt me lah... i ok le lah, i think... haha... i am bel lehz!... i will be fine soon:)... i will be strong de!..
Some random tots:
I am sorry if i havent been a great fren!... i know i am not caring at times but i really dunno how to be caring... i will try my best de!:)... i really treasure all my frens and i really love all of u, but i really dunno how to express myself... i apologise for being so stupid and lousy at tat... i am also so sorry if i had been really wilful and stubborn... i am really sorry.... i promise to be a better fren ok?...
Love you all
bel:)
Where should i begin?... haha.... Loads of things happened over tis past week or so, that made me super emo and pissed and many other things....
CAUTION!... LONG POST AHEAD!... you shld know lah, i very long winded de... waha... read finish if u consider urself my good fren!:)... haha... i like forcing u all to read sia... waha... read hor!... i sacrificing my slp to blog de lehz.... haha...
Take yesterday as a start, i was super pissed and disappointed with myself that i actually broke down.... I went to teach the yr 1 for peer tutoring, and i was super confident at the start, cos i topped the level for MIEC, so i didnt prepare at all!... then when i began teaching, i kept saying the wrong stuffs and i think i made them more confused at the end... so i was super super guilty and i felt really really bad... i was suppose to help them clear their doubts but i think i made them much more confused.... sigh.... then my poly classmate, li rong, sat in my class to pei me from 5 to 7pm.... i felt super touched and i really thank her a lot cos i had moral support, if not i think i would have screwed up much more and much worse... Thank, li rong (i know u read the blog)... haha.... but i felt very guilty cos after that she had to rush home for dinner... sigh... then i was so freaking emo cos i felt really really really bad and guilty.... and then, my 4 bowling frens call me say that they waiting for me and it was alrdy 7.30 le... i had training after ta u see... hehe.... but i told them no need wait for me le but they still did anyway... thanks ppl, i really appreciate it!... then there was my junior, his fren was in the class that i taught so he help me ask for her feedback... then his fren reply "the tutor nt very good, she kept contradicting herself"... sigh... so i became even more sian... cos i nv expect that tis kind of thing will happen.... then at 8, my frens had to cab down to the place as there was no comm members to arrange lanes and stuff, so i sabo them take cab down... so i kept blaming myself yesterday for everything that happened cos i like lian lei everyone... i sabo-ed everybody yesterday!... so how can i feel good?.... then i cried lor...
i really hated everything that happen ard me nowadays!... i dunno why things have become like tat!... i dun listen in lectures and i fall asleep in half my lectures!... till now, i still dunno wat my lecturer talking abt lor when my ct is ard the corner... i am so screwed up for tis sem... i hate it!... why must it be happening to me now!... ah!.... i feel as if i am losing everything and that i am doing things for the sake of doing!... sigh... but dun worry abt me lah... i ok le lah, i think... haha... i am bel lehz!... i will be fine soon:)... i will be strong de!..
Some random tots:
I am sorry if i havent been a great fren!... i know i am not caring at times but i really dunno how to be caring... i will try my best de!:)... i really treasure all my frens and i really love all of u, but i really dunno how to express myself... i apologise for being so stupid and lousy at tat... i am also so sorry if i had been really wilful and stubborn... i am really sorry.... i promise to be a better fren ok?...
Love you all
bel:)